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    R.I.P

    R.I.P Nan Ivy 05/12/2006
    Hope your in a better place now and you and grand dad are back together.

    Am i suffering from Perfectionism i think so?

    Perfectionism is:

    • the irrational belief that you and/or your environment must be perfect
    • the striving to be the best, to reach the ideal, and to never make a mistake
    • a habit developed from youth that keeps you constantly alert to the imperfections, failings, and weakness in yourself and others
    •  level of consciousness that keeps you ever vigilant to any deviations from the norm, the guidelines, or the way things are ``supposed to be''
    • a reason why you may be fearful of success, i.e., if I achieve my goal, will I be able to continue, maintain that level of achievement
    • a rigid, moralistic outlook that does not allow for humanism or imperfection
    • an inhibiting factor that keeps you from making a commitment to change habitual, unproductive behavior out of fear of not making the change ``good enough''
    • the belief that no matter what you attempt it is never ``good enough'' to meet your own or others' expectations

    What irrational beliefs contribute to perfectionism?

    • Everything in life must be done to your level of perfection, which is often higher than anyone else's.
    • It is unacceptable to make a mistake
    • If those in authority say this is the way it is supposed to be, then that is the way it is supposed to be.
    • It is what you achieve rather than who you are that is important.
    • I have no value in life unless I am successful.
    • There is no sense in trying to do something unless I can do it perfectly, e.g., ``I don't attempt things I can't do well.''
    • You must always strive to reach the ideal in everything you do because it is in the achievement of the ideal that you give meaning to your life.
    • There is only one way to reach a goal: the right way.
    • I'll never be able to change and grow the way I want to
    • I am a human being prone to error, frailty and imperfections so find it very hard to take errors sometimes.

    To be contiuned.

     

     

     

       

      little dragon - twice

      Twice I turn my back on you
      I fell flat on my face but didn't lose
      Tell me where would I go
      Tell me what led you on
      I’d love to know

      Was it the blue night
      Gone fragile
      Was it both men
      In wonder
      Steady gone under
      Was it the light ways
      So frightening
      Was it two wills
      One mirror holding us dearer now

      Thought I had an answer once
      But your random ways swept me along
      Colossal signs so I got lost
      With so many lovers singing soft

      Was it the blue night
      Gone fragile
      Was it both men
      In wonder
      Steady gone under
      Was it the light ways
      So frightening
      Was it two wills
      One mirror holding us dearer now

      sad :(

      Well not a good day for me i am feeling down and sad but its ok because i can handle the bad times, i just feel sometimes i'm not doing things right and that's why things don't go right but how can i know if no one will tell me when things are wrong or how to make them right.  Well i guess i have to look forward and see what good times are around the corner well atleast that's what i'm hoping for good times: )

      Happy

      Open-mouthedToday i'm very happyOpen-mouthed

      Back up

       
      I started the year off probably the lowest i've ever been but i've picked my self back up and am now starting to live my life more the way i want to and not trying to live how people want or think i should be, i'm not saying to hell with everyone but just that what i want has to come first.Open-mouthed
      I'm making changes all the time to my life and will continue to do so i just also would like to thank the few people who stopped and read my last blog and left some very nice and kind words thank you very much. 

      Down lower then every before

      My life really feels like it's hit rock bottom this week and i just don't know what to do any more. I can't get my self motivated and i'm just not happy i just want to walk away from my life because it feels so shit. It's been bad for years but just latley it's got really bad, i just can't seem to be happy or content with my life or the things around me. I try my hardest but it just seems like people just keep kicking me back down every time i start to do well. I try to say right no-one else matters just me but it's no good i can't do it i need some thing or someone who will take my mind away from it all i just can't seem to find what i need i know i need to try harder now but i'm just to low to care.
      I am so alone i can't even begin to tell you how that feels i don't mean i have no-one around me i have lots of people every day to see and speak with i mean the way i feel inside i have enough money and i can afford nice things but i can't be happy.
      I'm a smart person i'm good at my job and everyone probably thinks there's nothing wrong with me but i hide it from everyone but i't starting to get worse and i don't know how much more i can take before i just break down and can't take any more. I want to walk out from my job and just drive my car away to a new place but is that really going to help i'll still be me so still have to put up with the same feeling so i don't think that will work.
      I thought my life had turned a big corner in 2006 and things were going to at last be good for me but yet again more let down but it's ok i'm used to it. I don't know if this is going to help but maybe by writing how i feel down it will help me carry on with the crap i have to put up with in my life well i guess it can't hurt can it?
      I don't want to feel like this any more but how do i sort it out do i need help? Can someone help me take the really bad days and not let them get me down and then from there help me to turn my life around and become happy again like i used to be.

      true love

      A girl asked a guy if she was pretty

      He said No!

      She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever

      He said NO!

      She asked if she left would he cry

      He said No!

      She had heard enough

      She walked away tears streamin down her face

      He grabbed her arm .

      Ur not pretty he said

      Ur beautiful

      I don't wanna be with u forever

      I need to be with u forever

      And i wouldn't cry if u left

      I'd DIE

      Thats True Love

      Losing/winning

      If you feel like your always losing, Don't that make when you win all the more sweeter.

      what makes you happy

       
      With such a great big world out there and everyone looking for similar things to be happy, to be rich, to fall deeply in love, get every thing you ever wanted, it's no wonder not everyone gets them all.

      yesterday,today,tomorrow

       
      Time is end less it's just our time here on earth thats not.

      Is today your last day? who knows??????

      "It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on
      earth - and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up, we will then
      begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had"
       

      Rugby

      Come on England
       
      Rugby World Cup 2007 MIDI Ball 

      what's in the cards

       
       Daily Love Tarot Reading for mark - October 20, 2007

      0 0 If you've recently suffered a break-up, dear mark, today's the day you'll start bouncing back - and higher than ever! The alliance of the Wheel of Fortune and the Tower is telling you that it's time to start rebuilding your love life and commit to a new relationship. You'll be bewitched by new encounters that will restore your confidence in your powers of seduction! Spread your wings!

      Click here to get a reading for your friend.
      Click here to learn more about Tarot.

      why, how, what, where??????????????

       

      Why?

      am I here

       How?

          do I overcome this loneliness

         What?

      makes my life so hard

       Where?

        is that one special relationship

       

      Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

      I Am a Realist

       

      You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.
      You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...
      But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.
      You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

       

      http://www.blogthings.com/areyouanoptimistorpessimistquiz/

      Questions

       
      Is there a soul mate out there for everyone?
      Will they always make you happy and never let you down?
      How would you know, if you meet them?
      Do you have to work at a relationship?
      Does love have to be equal to last?
      Can you be happy just by yourself forever?
      Is love real or just something we think we feel?
       
       
       
       

      happiness

      You will never be happier than you expect. To change your happiness, change your expectation.
       
      Happiness comes only from appreciating what you have right now. You can even be happy by appreciating your troubles because they are helping to build your character.
       
      Happiness is the only good. The time to be happy is now. The place to be happy is here. The way to be happy is to make others so.
      Happiness is when your mind is thinking through your heart.

      party time

      PartyPartyPartyPartyParty
       
      PartyOut PartyingPartyPartyTonight YippeeeeParty
       
      PartyPartyPartyPartyParty

       

       

      L

      "You never stop loving someone, you just learn to live without them."